Someone

Just watched Dexter S5 e10, still feeling excited about it cuz Dexter's got someone who knows him very well, that person is Lumen, a good companion.

Cons to Dexter, it's hard for him to find someone completely knows who he is, and so am I, someone could just find me? My Miss right?

Craziness moment

Still, depressed, ain't no reason, even answer to this. Maybe, this really ain't my thing and I just wanna get out, get away from this meaningless life. I should go somewhere else, somewhere new to live a new life for me. Don' t u think? If there is a "U" out there.

My mind has been going through a chaos, just got trapped, and my body's got frozen, I can't move, so many things, burdens, stuff like that... Honestly, I am very unhappy right now, feeling like I am lost my way, this ain't good. But I think it's just matter of time that I'll leave here where I don't think I belong. Or maybe, I should change myself a little bit, it' s hard though, gotta give it a shot! Maybe I'll try this in a different environment, i can't do this here, in this place...

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Hey! What's Up?!!

Yay!!!!!!!!

Finally, Wall-jumping succeeded! This is really something. It's been like 2 years since last time I logged on successfully? I don't know, but I made it this time. This is cool! And I could continue my E-diary and keep my life scroll moving on!

If I got time or I wanna say something, I'll show up and write...

Im BACK!!!! LOL

I finally decide that Im NOT gonna say anything about this cuz I've successfully logged on MY BLOGGER ever since long time ago. This really makes me sooooo happy. Originally, I thought blogger was retired, off-work. But after that it turned out to be just a forbidden access to some certain foreign websites regulated by some authorities of our GREAT COUNTRY.

WTF! This sucks! I can't surf blogger, twitter, facebook, myspace, youtube... Oh, Man! I dunno. Anyway Im back! Safe and Sound. I love writting things in here. This place is just like my lil secret room, I could do whatever I want in here. And it's awesome!

LOL

Theory Of Dirty Relationship...

Excellent Graduates of Liaoning Province and Excellent Graduates of Dalian City. Dude, U could definitely tell the difference from these two, right? It's not like Im boasting here,like Im tryna say that Im soooooooooooo dope, Cuz I DO think that Im qualified enough to wear a better crown on my head. But U know, yeah, this is a place on the earth called China, Yeah! Mighty China! 1.3 billion people living in this country. As a proverb says: Money n Relationship could do you lots of things!

So, let's talk about relationship, oh, especially dirty relationship. Those 3 persons who had got the EG of Liaoning Province don't deserve any of those names n glory. But as long as they've got some dirty relationship out there, they could get anything they want from the dark side. Well, this is China, relationship n money work like they r ur dad n mom that can do ANYTHING for u. What more can I say?!!! Though Im a lil pissed, just live with it n move forward. Life's still good.

Moments that We'll NEVER Forget...

Through the 3 minutes, this passed 1 year, You are still here, STANDING...

Mentalistic Cure, Maybe Not that Much No More...

Actually, it's just not like what I was or am supposed to be. Maybe Im not that kinda guy I used to be. Occasional sentimentality needs a lil mentalistic cure to be relieved, that was what I used to do. But right now, Im like a lil bit changed, I finally realized that life should be colorful n various, full of all kinds of new things that I never had reached out. So I've been changing to be a realistic n optimistic guy, tryna experience as much as I can in the world, laughing to the unknown future Im currently confronting etc.

Yeah, it's a long long time that I ain't logged on n tried to record what was on my mind. The point is that Im NOT like what I used to be a lil bit. I dunno where to start my journal! This is how things end like this, long time no writing. I think this is the reason why I did all of that.

A guy should eventually grow to a fully mature one. During the whole process, Mentalistic cure, maybe not that much no more.

Silently Alone?...

Right now, Im feeling depressed, Im currently like at the bottom of my emotion. I dunno, just things ain't that kinda beautiful n positive as I imagined. There r always some suckers around me, and every time I see them, I just can't help thinking that those motherfuckers really suck! That absolutely makes me down, cuz I can't stand living with them, having them wandering in my life, my supposed 2 be sweet n tranquil life.

Honestly, I love Dalian-the city, BUT I REALLY FUCKING HATE SOME DALIAN MOTHERFUCKERS. It just makes me wonder that who the fuck do they think they r! I dunno, Im like so fucking pissed off. I mean, not only do they take things 4 granted, but they look down upon non-local people. Okay, let me put it this way, U just CANNOT understand what a life-struggler's life like in a remote, unfamiliar city, how come u consider a non-local person as nothing? How come u could be like a high-profile piece of shit? U r NOT us, U don't fucking know a damn thing about us AT ALL! SO SHUT UR MOTHERFUCKING MOUTH UP AND STOP JUDGING US, CUZ U DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK WE'VE BEEN THROUGH.

So, when it comes to this moment, I just need someone 2 accompany 2, 2 be with me n talking 2 me like she cares about me, she cares my feeling, my emotion, everything. Im not like silently alone at this moment, I need 2 be cared about, I just need somebody intimate, bosom, mild, tender... 2 be here with me. BUT Im just going nowhere fast, I think it's just the high time that I really need someone, someone has always been there 4 me. That won't be my parents cuz I love them, I can't say a bad thing happened 2 me through cell phone cuz they r not able 2 help me out either, not mentioning that will bring them anxiety n troubles. I won't tell them these fucked-up stuff.

Silently Alone? Sometimes I don't think so... I AM STILL HUMAN-BEING, I NEED LOVE & CARING. THIS MAYBE NOTHING 2 U LOCAL PEOPLE, BUT IT MEANS A LOT 2 A LIFE STRUGGLER TRYING 2 LIVE IN THIS CITY.

Beyond Expectation...

It's just like rotting in there n I've just been watching it helplessly. This is not like what I thought any more. Turns out like those changes r coming after us much faster than we could imagine. It's terrible 2 see all of this happening just in front u n u could nearly do nothing about it. I tried 2 save this mess, but I dunno, I ain't have that kinda power, energy, willing 2 make some differences out there, I guess.

I dunno, perhaps just go with what life shows me. What belongs 2 u is definitely gonna be yours, but those who r not, no second thought about it.

Just DESTINY DECIDES!

Inspired by my idol...

Just don't look at the whole pic at the same time, divide it into several small parts n concentrate on them one by one. Then things r much easier to be done. Don't get anxious, worried, just believe that u can handle all of that little by little.

LeeHom Wang is definitely my idol! My Star! I adore him not only because he's talented, cute, modest... but a LOT of things he does little by little n he really makes a LOT of progress! Nearly all kinds of musical instruments that he can play, also he's able to speak several countries' language. Shooting a movie in the day time, working out in the afternoon, composing songs at night! He's like a workaholic, but he never gets tired n he just keeps doing everything step by step, put his heart n soul into it n keep it up all the time. He never gives up or gives in!

I love him! And he's absolutely my extraordinary modal! Im'ma learn sth from his deeds, personality, persistence, everything... With all of these stuff in me, I could make a huge difference in me myself. DO NOT keep everything done on my mouth, just DO it in reality.

Fat Issue...

Was I used 2 say that I needa keep on diet n try 2 lose some weight? I dunno, Man. Im sorta confused n trapped in here. I mean, things don't work out like what I want them to be done. Seriously, I do wanna lose those goddamn fat outta me, but foodholic makes it sorta impossible 4 me 2 accomplish this TASK.

Yeah, foodholic, C'mon! A right word which vividly describes me. I like eating, especially snacks. Can u imagine a food-lover eating a LOT of snacks in the evening without getting fat? Damn! This is what I'd pay attention 2.

I gotta try 2 work out. Maybe going 2 a GYM would be a nice shot.

A lil Catch-up...

OMG! This is reaaaaaaaaaaally a long time that I ain't logged on n brought sth new in here.

Honestly, I've been through A LOT! Those experience r soooooooo precious n valuable 2 me. It's just a start-up, there is still a long way 4 me 2 walk on n I'll do everything that I can 2 walk as steady as I can, it'll be cool if I could run!

Sooooooooooo long a time passed since last time I felt like this way-FREE.

Announcement...

It's been a while that I ain't log on n update my blogger. And I don't think it's like my responsibility 2 log on n write everything down on the blogger, cuz Im living in a real world that is filled with all kinds of material n psychological stuff that Internet could NOT comprehensively describe or convey 2 the people via words. So what Im trying 2 say here is that if I wanna log on n update my specific emotion through words, I'll do it when I feel things r cool.

I like this place, it's just like my lil cabin in which I could totally be me. That's the reason why I like it.

Really After 80s?

Having seen the spring festival gala 2009 on CCTV, There was an opusculum "Warm Winter" by Feng gong. In the show, he said the the people who r over 80 years old r kinda fond of him n he continued 2 say that " They r all after 80 s!" Yeah, that's definitely true about it, they r after genuine age 80 but still "After 80 s " represents the younger people who were born between 1980 to 1989. And this "They r all after 80 s " is kinda like homophones.

So I keep asking "Are we Really After 80s?". I dunno the answer but sth always confuses me, which after 80s in younger generation r really physically n mentally like after 80s in the elder one. Why would I say like that? Because we younger generation r becoming sorta isolated, isolated from everything, like people, places, stuff... All the things that accompany them r Internet, ACG stuff, TV... What Im trying 2 say here is that we generation is kinda like "Home-staying" guys n ladies n it's like we r physically n mentally 80, which is definitely not the real thing. Laziness n sense of security shortage, I think, would be the reason why we "after 80s" r really like after 80s. Those Stuff r gradually eating us up b4 we realize that coming.

As a whole, We new generation is somehow like the brand-new sunrise in the sky, as it been told by Chairman Mao, We'll never like real after 80s n that really sucks if u r physically n mentally weak but not old. Anyway, I don't wanna behave like that. So Im gonna be all wired up n embrace the future with my own strong hands.

Chitchat...

Me n Peachy had a GREAT chitchat about everything yesterday. I was like sooooooo delighted 2 talk 2 her via voice cuz she's a lovely girl living in London. Though we don't know each other physically, I do think that she's a joyful, kind-hearted, cute...(enormous complimentary words). U may ask me Y'd I think like that. All right, the point is I like her voice which makes me feel like she's like my lil sister. lol. And She told me A LOT about how things work in her region. Music, Idol, Food...even Chinese we'd talked about till I got sth urgent 2 handle with.

She's caught a cold n feeling not right in her throat, I hope she could take good care of herself, be better soon n have a sufficient preparation on her Uni interviews. I believe she's gonna make it. Good luck 2 her.

Hey! Glamourous goldfishes! take care of ur lil boss. lol.