Impulse...

I ain't had this kinda feeling for a long time that Im so willing 2 buy a real book in hand. I could call it impulse but that's cool anyway.

I like this book named "Currency Wars" by Song Hongbin. It's just like a huge hidden ice burg being emerged outta the surface of the economy water. The world economics is not as simple as ordinary people think it 2 be. These economy policies n rules r the most confidential stuff of a nation, untold stories n mysterious black walls r all over the place where u just canNOT find.

There r still too many questions 2 be answered. Let's just go n see.

Doing 9 to 5...

925,925,925... If u read these kinda numbers individually, it doesn't mean anything. But related 2 working stuff, this is totally a rule, regulation, restriction or sth. Well, u guys know quite well about it, right? It's 9 o'clock A.M. to 5 o'clock P.M. specifically in working area.

Yes, it indeed is a brand-new life for me n Im pretty sure that I could make it perfectly. But here is a collision that I can't balance my working time n spare time well cuz u know, it's a huge drop which compares ur spare time back 2 collage life with those in 925 life. At the beginning, I can't accustom 2 it n I felt like my world is crashing down n I was pretty exhausted. When I arrived home, I couldn't help falling down onto my bed n went asleep ASAP. I ain't got sufficient time 2 do whatever I like 2, just leaving me a small handful of time 2 SLEEP! Man! it's really a HUGE drop!

But actually, I've been through that kinda unbearable period that Im not able 2 do sth I like 2. Still, Im doing 925 but what the difference is that I gradually accustom 2 it n I could arrange my time properly. Thing r getting better, I ain't felt that exhausted no more, instead of that, Im energetic 2 face whatever comes in front of me. That's exactly what I wanna see. I've eventually been through that transitional awful time. Bingo!

Snow Dance...

Nov. 18th 2008-Snowing Day. Sth occurred 2 me when I was on the way 2 work on bus that I'd had an Internet ID named "Snow Dance" as I was watching snow flying bravely through mighty strong wind. It's beautiful, u know, n it's just like they were dancing out there n cheering that they'd finally got freedom of their own. They've been stuck in the middle of sky n waited for that "release point". Once started, they released themselves as long-caged animals would do.

Seems like I've got freedom too. Although tired as I am, hard like it always be, I eventually have freedom that I can be totally on my own, which I think it's cool cuz I don't wanna give my parents extra weight any more. I like this kinda feeling, get paid by my own hands. I believe that I can make it one day, I can achieve my goals step by step in years 2 come.

Away From the GIANT World...

I said that I'll keep all of u guys out there updated everyday but apparently, I ain't able 2 realize that kinda "dream" cuz I ain't have internet access back 2 where I live n during the busy working time, I ain't around the PC. So, that's just the way it is! It's just kinda like Im away from the GIANT world, United World, I dunno.

I'll do the best that I can 2 take good care of my "mini harbor". God bless me.

The Dandelion's Growing-up Ceremony...

Preface: Like a dandelion, my growing-up ceremony has come beside me. Time for me 2 fly n find out where in the world I belong.

In a new apartment is already a grown-up me. This is a sign, a milestone of the growing-up ceremony which represents that Im gonna start a brand-new life from the scratch. Life consists of thorn n honey from which u'll never know u r gonna get. But as for me, I'll say that Im NOT afraid of any unknown upcoming stuff cuz I do believe that I have it in me n as long as I have this faith, I can finally make it. I'll get more honey than thorn, totally.

PS: My whole family's got situation from 2008 on, I love my parents, I love my family. I'll get through all things with them together. Mom&Dad, just take good care of urselves especially ur health, there is nothing more important than this. The last word Im gonna say here is BELIEVE. Everything is gonna be all right.

Vivid Lesson...

"If there is someone out there guiding u all the way 2 the light, u'll never be in the dark." Yes, this is obviously correct. I did experience this today n Im gonna say, "Sister GAO, I do worship u! There's nothing more 2 say but the powerful execution." U taught me a vivid lesson today n I'd learnt tremendously a lot from it. Thank u.

I know u r like that kinda person who is always giving others the cold side of ur personalities. But actually u ain't like the person others thought u 2 be. U r like cold outside 2 someone new or not that familiar but warm inside 2 those well-known ones.

Well, anyway, I thank u for what U'd taught me n Im'ma keep experiencing n obtaining.

I Gotta Keep It Up...

I almost lose my initiative 2 log on n keep my "mini harbor" updated cuz I feel sorta tired n the supply of electricity had been cut off. Reasonably, it's the right time for me 2 go 2 bed n have a nice sleep but the moment when I realize that my "mini harbor" ain't been updated, decisively, I open up my laptop n log on Blogger n start 2 write today's journal, umm... , diary, 2 be more exact.

Sometimes, maybe just a lil bit persistence, just hold on one more time, one more second, minute, hour, day, year... Things won't be like what it'd be. So, every time u come across this kinda situation, call ur persistence up n he's definitely help u outta there n get exactly what u want.

Melancholy Doggy...

This is a snapshot desplayed on the screen of my office computer.

Cool. huh? This dog seems a lil melancholy n he's just like thinking about something or somebody like his GF.

:-D

Me Surrounded...

Puff... Seems like today is the Bachelor's Day but Im kinda in a different situation cuz Im like surrounded by a bunch of ladies. No kidding, there is just one man-me in that office, surrounded are nearly all ladies. U may probably say that Im the happiest man ever in the world. Yeah, maybe but they are like my big sisters n teach me a lot about what I needa learn. Really gotta thank them for what they've done 2 me.

Anyway, it's cool. I like them(not that kind) n the atmosphare all around the office. I've a good start I guess, so just need a lil bit persistence. Be good do right!

Busy Running...

At the beginning, I gotta say that I love this kinda feeling that always keeps me on the run, emptiness seems like shadow dark under the sunlight. Here, I ain't got that many 2 say though it's my first working day. It's kinda mixed emotion. One is that life ain't that easy as we thought n the other one is that the sense of accomplishment is exactly what I want n long for. And I've been tryna do everything better when I do my job.

This is me, kinda like perfectionist but I know things ain't that easy as I thought them 2 be, there is a long way 2 go. Keep doing, Man! Every Empire Building starts from the foundation, just tryna make my foundation the most solid one ever in the world. :-D

Inspirational Statement...

Dude! This'll be a crucial & memorable moment cuz tomorrow Im gonna officially do my internship job. Once a life-time experience is about 2 come.

So, I'll proclaim that Im gonna pull all my strength in his n exert myself in doing what Im gonna do in the days, weeks, months 2 come.

My "Real-Man" time is eventually coming on his way. Yeah, C'mon! Unknown future! Bring it on!

Memory Fragments...

Accidentally, I've got a QQ group message from that "long-time ago" elementary school group. Honestly, I ain't recognize most of them but uh... I don't know... It's just... I don't know how 2 express that kinda feeling outta my inner "Notion Spreader".

Memories' fading away its original temperature, leaving all things behind but fragments which I feel hard 2 pick up, while walking alone along the memory river. Emotion's been smashed 2 pieces by a backward glance of those broken segments of my heart , so-called strong outward appearance covered by bitter sentimentality still holds on 2 the end.

Sentimentality continues, life also moves on. With Time passing by, fragments've gone away.

Idealist...

Im uh sorta depressed. I dunno. Just wanna say that we this generation r kinda like Idealists. The real world we r gonna face 2 is sooooooooooo cruel, hard, merciless or sth. We always have nasty issues to think or care about cuz u r not officially on ur own. Bitter laughter is hanging around my mouth, Im like totally petrified. I can't do a single thing 2 smile. I just can't do that. Im under a kinda like biggest pressure of cruel life which makes me feel outta breath. I hate that, I hate that from the bottom of my heart.

I gotta struggle, just like what I'd written in my former journal, Im a life struggler. If I don't do that, Im gonna be washed outta the living stream forever, which I really don't wanna see.

"It's the survival of the fittest" I ain't compromise. Im'ma keep struggling 2 the end. I believe that I could finally make it. Just remember that life can't be easy for everyone.

I MUST STRUGGLE N DON'T BE AN IDEALIST, THERE IS ALWAYS REALITY, NOT IDEALISM.

Weather Changes...

Winter's gonna come on its way. Winter in Dalian is sorta nasty cuz the freezing wind is gonna drive u crazy n make u have this kinda feeling that u wanna migrate 2 the south n never come back.

Am I a migratory bird? I dunno.

Time 2 Hit The Road...

Me n one of my dorm mates were talking about renting an apartment in the downtown area. As for me, the moment when the final exam is over, it is already the time 2 hit the road to that genuine, cruel, merciless society (This maybe a lil extreme, but it's true).

Luckily, I've got an internship job n there is, I think, a huge space for me 2 cultivate my abilities, I mean, almost all kinds of fields that relevant 2 what I've learned on campus. That's exactly what I've been thinking n longing for. That's cool, I mean, this is just a good start that makes half of success.

Yeah. Still, C'mon Man! lil-V, u can do it. Just go ahead n do whatever u set ur mind 2.